Check out this emotional clip of Lady Gaga from an upcoming HBO special about her Monster Ball tour.

Lady Gaga Presents The Monster Ball Tour at Madison Square Garden was shot during the 25-year-old tour stop at the Garden in NYC.

“I just sometimes feel like a loser still, you know? It’s crazy cause we’re at the Garden but I still sometimes feel like a loser kid in high school. I just gotta pick my shit up, gotta pick myself up, and I have to tell myself I’m a superstar every morning so that I can get through this day and be for my fans what they need for me to be … But sometimes I still feel like people are trying to destroy me. I cannot be destroyed, I will not be destroyed and you will never destroy the kingdom that is my fans.” She adds.

GaGa continues, “I’m fighting for every kid that’s like me, that felt like I felt and feels like I still feel. It hurts when I know how much authenticity and how much genuine blood is in my spirit and how much I feel like people don’t know that… ‘cuz they see wigs and lipstick and they shut down, ‘cuz they don’t understand. I just wanna be a queen for them and sometimes I don’t feel like one. It’s not about being a winner for me any more. It’s about being a winner for all of them.”

The pop sensation then bows her head in prayer, asking God for courage . . .

“Please give me strength to be a winner for all of them and not myself… Please help me to be strong and know my own strength. Please help me to be brave, Lord. Dear God, give me courage. Do not let me give in to my own insecurities.”

Check out the clip below

Lady Gaga Presents The Monster Ball Tour at Madison Square Garden premieres May 7 at 9 p.m. on HBO.